Tonight we head down to my aunt and uncles in Shoreline to stay the night for our 7 am appointment at Swedish. The scheduler at Swedish said, i'm so sorry i hate to have anyone come in that early. But with the short week due to Thanksgiving it was the only time that worked. So i am grateful they could get us in. The reason for the 7 am ultrasound is to make sure that Esther is alive, before we meet with the doctor for a consultation. When we were there on Tuesday we met with a genetic counselor, but not a doctor. For that reason there were many questions she could not answer for us. I wonder why they wouldn't always have you meet with a doctor? I am guessing maybe because when some parents find out that the "viability doesn't look good" for their baby, then they terminate the pregnancy. Which definitely was laid out on the table as an option. Of course not an option for us. I despise the word viability (for those who haven't lived through hearing that word, it basically means she's not going to live) after hearing it so much on Tuesday. Anyway, then we have an appointment with the doctor who can answer any questions we have. One of the big things that the counselor told us is that it could be a risk for me carrying such a sick baby. My doctor here still doesn't think that is an issue, but we want to ask the doctor at Swedish those questions. We also plan on going to Iowa the day after Thanksgiving to spend another Thanksgiving with Brians family there. The counselor told us to really think about that. So i guess there are just lots of questions that we get to process through. I know God is in control of that all, so i not worrying, they just told us to write down all the questions we have. After we meet with the doctor then i have an amniocentisis scheduled with her. This will tell us more so for the future what our chromosome situation is like, based on what Esther's chromosomes look like.
Some have asked how to pray specifically, and i would say tomorrows ultrasound, consultation, and amnio would be the specific prayer requests. There are risks with amnios, (and no, the needle does not go into her, just the fluid) but again, i am trusting God with all of that. I am not going to take the responsibility on myself. Of course we are praying for a miraculous healing, if that is what would bring glory to God!
This is really cool: One of my friends looked at the last ultrasound picture we posted of the profile of Esther's face, and said that above and to the right, looked like a silhouette of Jesus' face! I saw it too, and it brings me so much comfort. One of the questions i have had is, is she in any pain? I am hoping and praying she is not in pain. After i saw that, i am comforted to know that Jesus is right there with her! Like he is with all of us. :)
Thanks again for keeping us in your prayers and for your steadfastness. Isaiah 26:3 is one of my favorites that got me through a dark time earlier in my life. It says -"You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you." Verse 4 goes on to say "Trust in the Lord forever, for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal."
It is all we can do:) Monica
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