HE WILL ANSWER!

I meet with some amazing women every Tuesday morning at 6 am. I am inspired and enouraged by them all the time. In life. These are some of the people who loved on me and Brian in our darkest hour. They didn't know what to do, but they did what they could do and I love them! They were there and that is all that they needed to do. Wow! I am humbled and blessed by how God used them and so many others in our life. He truly does provide for us and give us EVERYTHING we need.

We talked a lot this morning about why bad things happen. I think that is a question we will never fully have answered here on earth with our human minds. Why does He stop some bad things from happening, but not others? He has the power to do ANYTHING. And yet sometimes He chooses to allow some crappy things in life. I know that He shows us himself through those dark times, and yet the Why question still isn't answered. I found peace when i decided to stop asking why we lost Esther. That question still comes up at least a couple times a week. Just pops up, and then again I realize I don't know, but God does and i must rest in that. It is hard. So hard though! But God is God. I am not God. I don't understand His ways, but this I know. That He loves me and wants the best for me, and is working His best out in my life, THROUGHOUT my life. The good and the bad. That is hard to grasp?? The good, the bad, the ugly He is working it all out. But yet we process and we wrestle and that is good. I don't think it matters what we do or feel, what questions we ask, the pain we feel, the anger, the hurt.......as long as we are turned to Christ and bringing all that to Him. He already knows anyway, and He gets it. He knows the pain we are in, and yet His grace covers us. It is unexplainable. But in Psalm 91 we read this morning, from the message version, He says it so well. I think this is a theme for life.

"If you'll hold on to me for dear life," says GOD, "I'll get you out of any trouble. I'll give you the best of care if you'll only get to know and trust me. Call me and I'll answer, be at your side in bad times; I'll rescue you, then throw you a party. I'll give you a long life, give you a long drink of salvation!" last paragrah of Psalm 91

I believe that the key is to hold on to Jesus for dear life, and sometimes thats what it feels like! Like we will drown if we let go. He gives us the best care - but we still have hurt and pain - and yet He is giving us the best care. But, the big but in this is that we trust him. Get to know HIM. This is so awesome. Because He doesn't ask us to be perfect and do it all right, and not ever make a mistake (which i used to think) He asks us to simply trust Him.....IN HIM. The only thing that we have to do is trust. And at times that is so hard, but even if we are looking His way, and we are angry, and sad, and disappointed, yet looking His way, I believe that is trust. We are to have faith as a mustard seed. A mustard seed is really small. He takes our mustard seed and grows it and uses the hard times, and our clinging to him and increases our trust and our faith in him. This is what He has done throughout my life. It is a God thing. All i do is turn to Him. My cousin said once when i was having a rough time about 8 years ago, that if we are clinging to him just by a fingernail, we are still clinging!! We are still facing him, even if all we feel we can do is turn and stare. Nothing else. I thing that is all Jesus wants us to do. Is to face Him, and let Him do what needs to be done to get us through. Let him do the hard work. I think that is what the equipping us is. He equips us for what He calls us to. He doesn't equip us ahead of time. Giving us what we need, the moment we need it. Equipping, grace for the moment, it all seems the same to me. It is how God shows up in the blackest time. In a time we think we will never make it through. But we can get through, if we hang on to Him for dear life. Get to know him and trust him. HE WILL ANSWER!!!!! Because he says he will, and God does not lie. And the last part............"I'll give you a long life, give you a long drink of salvation!" Eternity with HIM. Oh that sounds lovely.......... I can. not. wait.